I will not be updating here as frequently as before.
If it's not here, then it's somewhere else.
Once the objective over at the other side is achieved, then it's back to here again.
I can never stay at one place for very long in the WWW.
Nonetheless, click here for pictures fresh from the oven if you are interested.
I always tell myself i write for myself so it doesn't really bother me even if nobody reads anything i say.

So good night and i will see you when i see you ;)

Hi,

Burppppppp.

I'm so food. My cousin and friends brought me to this hotel behind Thai embassy to eat buffet as the restaurant is having ladies' night on Monday.
It wasn't really fantastic. The spread was limited. And so were the desserts even though i'm not big on desserts and chocolate.
After dinner, we spent like 2 hours looking through our combined 4 Gig of pictures (i contributed 2 Gig of them). 
How could time pass just like that? Two weeks already and i have only managed to do collages for Day 1.

For pictures, please go to here.

This xanga site is like my public gallery when i wish to share pictures publicly with my frens. I will still write here and occasionally when i post pictures there, i will update here for my own reference 10 years down the road. Hurhur.

Monday. What did i do? I built a site for this product and am very pleasant with the result. I learnt how to do clipping masks in AI. And tomorrow, i'm going to start learning Macromedia Flash. Everyday, i learn as i work and by the time i'm ready to leave, i'm so much more prepared for my new job equipped with useful skills.

Alright! 1 week plus to my short getaway cum work trip to Bangkok. Will be there for 9 days!

My mum just turned 60 (according to the lunar year) today.
She's 36 years older than me (Yea i know and my bro is in his late 30s).
She will be the greatest mum i ever, ever know.
Mum always makes sure i grow up without feeling like we are deprived of anything just because dad left us early.
She is as strong as a dad can be (both mentally and physically) and as houswifey as any mum can be.
I know i can never ever repay mum for the giganormous number of things she has done and sacrificed (and will continue to) for me in all my 23 years.
Yes as cliche as it may sound, without my mum, i wouldn't have come so far, till this date.
I heart you, mum!

For her birthday this year, it's special because kim and i started working so we chipped in with our brother and sisters to buy a gift for mum to commemorate her for turning 60. 
We went to the jewellery store at Marriott and it is amazing how generous the discount was just because my sister is a director in the hotel and that they knew we were celebrating mum's 60th. 
What we got eventually was a jade peach pendant encrusted with diamonds on top which is worth $xxxx. 
I assure you my pocket wasn't exactly burnt because of a generous 70% discount!
Mum seems to like it because she is wearing it now. 
As long as she is happy, i should be too.
Despite the fact that work has kind of get to me lately.

I was just given the job scope for my next year (dun think i will stay that long) and my boss accidentally included her fav's list together with mine. 
So i did a comparison and i realised what i was given might just be the leftover duties that is left after she allocated the more important tasks to her.
Well, what can i say?
I probably will voice it out but i know it doesn't really change anything.
Yeah, maybe a few superficial changes here and there to make me happy enough to keep quiet, but still, the dynamics of the team will still remain.
Ok.Whatever. 
It was never my intention to stay so long and after i'm back from the bangkok biz trip, i will be done with this company soon as well.

Anyway, it's a saturday and we are supposed to enjoy it.
Half of it is gone anyway because i had training in office this morning. Pointless. Really pointless.
Once he comes, i know he will swing me into lalaland again.

So enjoy ur weekend too!

At this point in time, the anti-drugs campaign rang a bell in my mind. I remembered the message that came across strongly, "Learn to say no to drugs."

How many times have we consented to an outing or an assignment or a favor just because we do not know how to reject the other party that request for that?

I'm not sure how true it is, but as we grow older, the less we say 'no'. Or is it the other way round?

My colleagues have gone to JB today. I was supposed to go. Last Friday, i went with them to ktv. I was so tired. So not in the mood to sing. But i still went. I questioned why. Then i realised because i didn't want to drop out of the so-called clique. I didn't want to be left out. But today, a strange relevation took over me. When they called, i said 'no.' I no longer want to tag along to some activity just because i don't want to be left behind, and not because i genuinely wish to go. It's tiring for me this way.

Then my uni friends said to go ktv today. Remember the time when i got mad because i realised they have been leaving me out? So i tried to go everytime they remembered to ask me along. Then i grew tired. Why must i go just because they asked me to even if i was tired and reluctant to go? Because i didn't want the one time that i was absent to be a perfect excuse for them to use when they leave me out another time. But this is getting tiring.

Social gatherings are supposed to be fun. Opportunities to catch up with old friends, reminisce about the past, spending time with people whom you used to see everyday. But if every occasion turns into an obligation and a fear of being left out, then i see no point in doing this anymore.

Is being jaded in joining such social outings part of growing old? If it is, then i have to admit. I.am.getting.old.

The next time i'm joining a social gathering, i want to go without feeling obligated. I want to genuinely enjoy spending time with my friends and colleagues. The thing i need to do now is to feel less obligated. I didn't realise i have such a strong urge to belong. It's ok to be alone sometimes, i must continually remind myself.

Argh!!! I'm now stranded outside the office. Normally, there will be people. But on this unfortuante day at this dark hour, i'm being locked out. I am now sitting on the bench, typing on the laptop and fortunately for me, i am still able to get online and then transfer files from the server so i can at least do my work at home. So blardy suay!

Before i go off, here's the white beauty i mentioned. The one thing that i can't bear to leave behind in this company will be it. Soooo beautiful.







Updated: Now i'm in. After 45 minutes of suffering under the hot weather. Another female colleague who does not hold the key just came in. How come she's so lucky? Argh!